I broke a promise to myself this week. I had a mini goals to reach 179 lbs, then I would buy me a new pair of trousers. Well, this week I had so many comments about not being able to see the 30 kg went as I had to do something. You can see at first friends celebrate with me, with comments "way to go Janice, 30 kg is fantastic" etc etc. Then, after a day or so I started to get honest comments all in the same spirit. Janice drag your clothes "a bit and let me see the difference"-I would be able to bundle up my clothes so that they could see the difference. Then they told that they could not see the difference that I was always dressed in the same clothes as it was hidden.
My tax check, well, this week, so I thought I should go buy a pair of trousers to celebrate a bit early. Last Friday I went to look. I am not sure which size I was, I am usually in plus department store. This time I was in standard size clothes Wooo Hooo-I can't remember when I could shop at this title of a shop! I started with size 15 pants with my fingers crossed. Employee told me to take a smaller size, even as they were fit comfort (not it sounds horrible? It is just that they have lycra threads in them to make them more comfortable) I took them but I knew that they would not fit and me I called her all types of names to make me go into the changing room with a small size which would make me feel defeated when they would fit! I got to the changing rooms and ignore the smaller size pants and prepared to be defeated in size 15! THEY WERE GREAT! I quickly pushed them aside and tried on size 13. THEY WERE GREAT! I asked the Assistant to go get a smaller size and tried them on the RECEIVED the RIGHT SIZE!!!!!!!!!!!!Yes, in comfort fit I size 11 regular!!!!Now, you've learned that it means that I am probably a 13 or 14 of regular pants and I'm OK with that. 
Now is when I get happy so I went out and found a few peaks would also show the difference and it went with my pants. I am quite top heavy, so I XL peaks but I'm working on it and I know I can do this.
This week I have been able to get two pairs of pants that I haven't worn in years-in fact, I forget them in the dark recesses are in my closet, I dressed in a couple of them when I met a friend who I haven't seen in months. She told me I was looking fantastic, that she never saw me see this "thin" (not really thin but do you know what I mean) she said I look higher. This may be so, but I am thinking that I carry myself more as I don't try to suppress or slouch as I did, I'm more proud of myself these days-can hope that pride not precede a decline eh!
I have been a part of MJS "Break the habit of" challenge for the last five weeks.I was afraid of failure at the beginning and was very nervous about others to know how I did it in detail but it has been the best for me.It has really helped me to focus, so I will continue to do so even when the challenge is over another week; If you've ever thought about joining a challenge but hesitated, give it another thought because the others in the group is so supportive and I want everyone to feel that I have just now
I know I've said it before, but I have to say it again; you are what have made a big difference to my trip, I could not have made it this far without you. thanks for all the comments and suggestions over the last few months, I live happier and healthier because of you.
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